hmmm feeling much better today.. hehe.. finally tat sadness tat tortured me for 2 days had left me.. hope tat it will leave me and never be back.. haha.. finally can laugh liao hahah.. i'm back to normal.. sorry to make u guyz worried.. thanks for the concerns that u guyz gave me.. hmm now feel like going k box.. hmm anyone??? tomolo? =P
Friday, December 31, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
been feeling damm down again... is there something wrong wif me??? i'm in a DAMM terrible mood now.. really can't figure out where the problems lies... i'm a person who seldom got mood swing one.. can say i qute cheerful.. but dun noe wat happen recently.. i tend to have mood swing and i will feel like depress.. and it not only depress but DAMM depressed~! i really hate it u noe.. its very tong ku.. ARgh~~~~~~~~~.. i'm going crazy le~!! pls.. give me back wat i'm in the past.. i wan to be wat i'm a week ago.. and not the me rite now.. no one can help me as i can't even help myself .. pls, school reopening soon and i dun wan such mood to spoil my studies.. pls.. leave me..
and one thing i would say is.. hmmm.. i dun noe wat xin tai is this tat i'm having.. i dun noe why.. hmm this few days i've been going to s.h.e and wilber forum.. then looking at those pple liu yan.. i got many feeling.. thinking if i'm like them, how nice would it be.. i also started downloading their clips like their concert clips or activities that they attend. suddenly have this feeling of becomin ming xin, go on tv, promote my album, get to sing songs for my audience, get to go on performance and have my own concert.. hahaha.. impossible one.. (so is it noeing tat its impossible that makes me so sad?).. i keep questioning myself is it becos of this i'm depress and sad.. but i can't give myself an ans. u guyz may find i'm very weird rite.. becos of this i get so sad? i also find it weird.. this is not me lei.. haiz..... i'm thinking too much le.. i'm really a weirdo.. i just hate myself now...........................
and one thing i would say is.. hmmm.. i dun noe wat xin tai is this tat i'm having.. i dun noe why.. hmm this few days i've been going to s.h.e and wilber forum.. then looking at those pple liu yan.. i got many feeling.. thinking if i'm like them, how nice would it be.. i also started downloading their clips like their concert clips or activities that they attend. suddenly have this feeling of becomin ming xin, go on tv, promote my album, get to sing songs for my audience, get to go on performance and have my own concert.. hahaha.. impossible one.. (so is it noeing tat its impossible that makes me so sad?).. i keep questioning myself is it becos of this i'm depress and sad.. but i can't give myself an ans. u guyz may find i'm very weird rite.. becos of this i get so sad? i also find it weird.. this is not me lei.. haiz..... i'm thinking too much le.. i'm really a weirdo.. i just hate myself now...........................
Saturday, December 25, 2004
ARgh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!! dunnoe wat happen to me. this few days my mood goes up and down.. feeling damm terrible now.. depressed and sad.. wat's wrong wif me? hiaz.. can't solve this problem cos i myself dun even noe where the problem lies.. feel like crying out loud.. i really hate it when i'm in such a mood.. dun feel like doing anything.. dun noe how to express how i feel now in words.. argh.~~~~~~ i'm going crazy anytime.. really hope such mood will leave me asap.. pls~!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 23, 2004
as usual wake up at 7++ today.. help my mum wif her breakfast.. hmm think should get more silmmer than now.. hehe.. guess wat, TANG YUAN IS ACTUALLY A KILLER~!.. eating 5 tang yuan is the same as eating a bowl of rice~! wow, tat's a lot~.. hmm let me count.. 5, 10, 15, oh my, ate quite alot of tang yuan yesterday.. haiz going to get fatter liao.. NO~~~~~~ cannot eat too much for this few days.. cos xmas still gotta eat good food haha..
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
never blog for 2 days le.. hmmm wake up at 5am today, help my mum to do tang yuan.. haha.. hmm taste good wif peanuts powder.. haha.. wanted to go out for christmas but dunnoe still going out anot.. not plan yet.. feel like getting some new clothing for myself.. haha.. also dunnoe wat to say.. blog later if ahve anything to say ba~ =)
Sunday, December 19, 2004
haha
finally got my hair dyed.. quite like the colour and it looks quite similar to wilber's one. haha posted some pics below ~~ =)
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Hehe~~
hmm looks like quite alot of pple in a depressed mood recently .... hmm hope such mood will leave as soon as possible and everyone back to normal, with their cheerful smile on their face. feeling abit excited as tomolo going to get my hair dyed like wilber haha. but dun noe can get to style like his anot.. hehez... will post my new pic up tomolo ... =)
haiz~~~..
dun noe why, been feeling very moody this few days.. qin xu xian lu di chao.. haiz... just can't explain my feelings now in words. seeing both my friends saying about their bf relationship, i do feel sad for them as they might look happy but i noe, they r not.. hmmm, love is something very mysterious about.. u dun noe wat will happen in ur love life. u may be very loving this minute but u may be in a quarrel the next min. haiz... but do feel happy for them as they still get to be wif their love ones.. past is history. how i wish time can go back.. but back to the happy moments i have in my life... its terrible now.. really terrible.. loving someone but knowin that there will be no future in it is really terrible... sometimes i wonder, will remaining as friends better than gettin together? i dun noe... the feeling is just so different ~~~
haha
finally got my hair dyed.. quite like it and it looks like wilber's colour hahah.. posted some pics taken below .. =)
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
another day~~
currently at marc house now, time is 11+.. going to watch shi zhi lu kou later cos got S.H.E haha..~! actually going out but since ah mei wan to watch tv then the rest say if all go then go so decided to stay and watch tv instead since i also wan to watch too. haiz... dun noe wat to say tooo... noeing got things to say but dun noe how to say.. anyway, can't be bothered. going k box tomolo, haha gotta enjoy myself :) blog later if still have anything to say ...
Sunday, December 12, 2004
boring.....
its time to do some update liao, if not later rachel say my blog got dust le. haha. anyway, this few days satying at home playing maple story and doing some flash.. tried doing 3d max but still dunnoe how to use. time to go library to get some tutorial book... helping S.H.E forum to do a opening flash but dunnoe will get paid anot yet.. stil discussing. hope got money to take. hahahaha... gotta catch tonite MTV channel. got s.h.e tv special. haha. cya=)
Thursday, December 09, 2004
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haiz... boring day all the way.. feeling damm bored at home.. feel like going out... asking all my friends to go out together as i hope to share the enjoyable moments wif everyone.. ... but i think forget it... i shall continue staying at home and try to learn more stuff to prepare my coming school work.......... LEAVE ME ALONE AND PISSed OFF~! its time to be independent... anyway, nothing suprising as it's been all along like this.. just get used to it .. friends r for? friends would love to share their happy and enjoyable moments wif one other but this may not be true as not all are the same.. maybe i'm just being too sensitive.. who noes? haha....... wish everyone out there enjoying themselves, HAVE A NICE AND GREAT DAY.. SUCH MOMENTS MAY NOT HAPPEN ALL THE TIME...
Friday, December 03, 2004
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