我已经对他失去信心和希望了。。。

我相信。。 历史很快的又要重演了。。

最近，不知怎么搞得，心里总是有着一股很想哭，很想将一直闷在心里的事都发泄出来。。。

但是。。 我只能往自己的肚子里吞。。 那种感觉我只能说是非常的不好受。。。

原本有着许多的感想要说出来的，但是现在，头脑却一片空白。。。

或许，有些是事是不能去将它改变的吧， 所谓， 江山易改，本性难移

要走的路是由你自己选择的，我们能做得也只有那么一点点。。。


我真的累了。。。

finally my PES status

finally, i have a pes status now that will last me for 6 weeks..

i currently downgraded from my PES B to PES C to PES C9L3 now..

a brief description of wat C9L3 means...

Pes C - Fit for some operational Vocation (Modified BMT)
Pes C9 - All servicemen not required to tkae IPPT

PES C9L3 - Able to bear firearms and protect themselves, others and property. They
can be deployed in MSA or service supposrt formations/units.

so went for the driving course briefing today and was rejected by them to attend the course. so, i need to get my letter from the specialist on the 7th so that i'll be able to get a revocation..

came back home today early and reach home at ard 4.30.. mopped the floor and some laundry. went for dinner with my mum at amk S-11 hehe.. feel so great to be able to have dinner out with my mum... cos its been very long since we had one..

will be doing duty tomolo .. one of them changed my duty with his.. so i do his tomolo and he'll do mine on the 12th then...

yawnz... so sianz... ...

argh... why duty again???

haiz.. bad news

real bad news...

why am i like always doing duty huh?

i'm been assigned to do my duty on the

2nd, 12th and 22nd of DEC
SAT, tues and FRI

grhz.. everything when things are planned, i would recieved duty for the day.. hate it man.. stil thinking if i should let someone do my duty for me on sat which will cost me $30.. ( to pay the person helping me ).. do u think its worth it?

haiz.. initially planning for k box session on this coming sat which is 2ND DEC.. but looks like i have to cancel it off le..

planning to go KL too on the 8th but was given duty on the 10th(stand-by).. wat the hell..

tomolo will be going for my course briefing but will be rejected by them MOST PROB due to my medical staus and problems.. since the briefing is in the afternoon, so most prob i'll get to leave back home early, maybe 2+? hahaha

to do my duty or not to do...

hmmm.....

Gave a thought about ur future?

ok this is something that i hate to say.. i'm on duty again on friday night.. and i was only informed about it on thursday afternoon, after all the planning made with dia and mie on the friday dinner.. grhz... i hate last min notice..

so, wat can i do then? i just have to cancel the meeting with them...

alright.. been bringing my camera phone in and yes haha.. took some pic there too..




went out with yy dia zw in the afternoon yesterday.. walked ard marina square and we settled down at HANS for lunch..

later in the evening, jamie and her fren came over and we meet for dinner at pizza hut while zw went to his ns frenz steamboat...

during dinner we chatted alot and its more like a debating than a chat. but we do hope that he gets wat we're trying to tell him and we not againest anything. =) and that's wat frenz does ok?

alright bought a sweater at ebass as they're having this section of clearance sales and i told dia i'm going over to look for good stuff.. and yes indeed, i managed to find one. the kind of sweater that i wanted to buy.. the price written was $9 but after checking with the cashier its $15, which is rather cheap too.. 意外的收获..



stayed overnight at my ah ma house last night and went over to 光明山 as its my ah ma 100th days death anniversary.

after the pray, everyone of us went back to my ah ma house and its really crowded. its been sometime since its so crowded again and i like the feelin over there. we chatted alot and there's so much laughter too..

and by the way, i've made another new camp haha.like this very much.. still gotta get jamie, rachel, zw and eunice cap done asap. =P



its now 10.30pm and monday is coming again..

its time to go back to camp.. sianz...

Feeling much better

feelinf much better today with no flu, finally at last.. but i'm still coughing non stop at night which causes me to get sleepy in the day...

i just can't stand this person who's posted to our camp 3 days ago.. he's sooo lazy and good in NINJA SKILLS ( Disappearing ). Whenever there's work for us to do, he will go missing and we can't find him and when the work is done, u can see him walking ard immediately.. he likes to ask alot of questions and yes it really stupid questions and from the queations he asked, you can tell that he's good in chao keng.. he even told me before he was posted here, he only attended ard 10 days of army and most of the time he's on mc and when he was been asked to come back and endorsed the mc, he would just ignored.. wat the hell...

nvm, i'll make sure u start doing some work real soon.. who doesn't want to rest and stop doing those sai gang.. why not u come join us and get it done asap and all of us get to rest.?

grhz.....

meeting mie and dia on friday for dinner. its been quite some time since i saw this 2 gals le haha..

Life...

recently been getting very emotional..
alot of things can make me tear, which i don't know why...

after since my grandma who passed away and enlisting into the ns, i started to have alot of stuff circulating in my mind..

and i know and i'm sure

i LOVED my mum as much as i do in the past..

the feeling is back again...

i kinda of missed her and would like to share alot of my stuff with her...
she do get more reasonable now and she somehow manage to control her temper better...

was on my way back home in the bus and my mp3 was playing this song, 听妈妈的话， by jay chou.. the lyrics was very meaning and it do express my feelings that i'm having.. and it goes like this

听妈妈的话，别让她受伤

想快快长大，才能保护她

美丽的白发，幸福中发芽

天使的魔法，温暖中慈祥

it's really one meaningful song.. =)

been asked to clear our leave by the end of the year and i'm having 5 days of leave to clear.. gonna get it planned by next week.. maybe a trip overseas would be great.. =)

and yup, went for buffet dinner on sat with my mum and aunt at suntec city.. the food was overall ok but lack of a variety of choices to choose from.. here's some pic we took..

and look at this.. haha.. the article in teens about S.H.E got the pic that i took with them.. haha..

i'm so sick.....

finally back home..

was on duty last night in camp.. din have a very good sleep there as i'm really very sick..

down with flu, sore throat, sore eyes and cough.. haiz.. =(

from a few incident that happen in the camp, i would conclude that you do need to be really independence on yourself as in you can't rely on others as there's one word that i can say about SOME of them which is SELFISH.. and yes they are...

i shall not mention too much about wat are the incident just in case someone pass by..

i'm tired now, sleepy.....

BUT i wanna have fun too ~! its been quite some time since i really enjoyed myself le..
waiting for zw and yy to book out lo ~! hahaha....

and yes btw, this new song form S.H.E, Zhen Me Ban.. very cute and nice hahha.. the MV was so funny.. hahaha...

S.H.E Forever Singapore Yu Le Gen Pi Chong VCD

S.H.E Forever Singapore Yu Le Gen Pi Chong, a compilation of videoclips taken with digi cam and photos from arrival to auto to tong le hui to GCMA,(with clips of selina and tank singing) in a VCD, @$12..






Interested? leave me a msg here or sms me at 96694963. =)

FEVER~~~~

haiz.. so suay.. yesterday wasn't feelin well at ard 3pm. feeling hot and cold at times. was shivering all the way.. those people in the unit din notice about that.. at ard 5+, i requested from my unit to go see a doctor after we're dismissed, as we need to get permission to see a doctor outside. if not, u'll get charged.. wat the hell.. took a bus to Changi General Hospital, A & E department.. waited for ard 30 mins before i get to see the doctor.. my temp was so high.. 39.9.. the doctor then required me to take an x ray. he draw 2 test tube of blood from me and i was injected with a bad of water.. so called "da dian di".. damm pain the needle. very thick also..

was being wheelchaired to the x ray room then the observation room as i'm very weak. can't stand properly too. the doctor says i may need to be admitted into the hospital for a day.. haiz.
after lying on the bed, i went to sleep.. feelin very terrible.. can't think properly too.. about 1 hr later and my mum with my aunt came.. they were so worried lor.. so xin tong to see me like this.. i din talk much to them as i'm really weak. only get to know their presence there. after a while, my 2nd aunt called and asked how am i, she wans to come down and see me.. while toking to me she started to tear. i told her i'll be fine, dun worry bout me.. feel so sad lo.. i make them so worried..

at ard 9+ my temperature finaaly dropped.. 37.5 the doctor then finally agreeded to discharge me from the hospital..

when i reached home, took a bath, took my medicine and went to sleep...

slept all the way till 10.30 this morning.. was still feeling hot. measured my temperature, 37.4..
and i measured now again, it went down to 37.1.. hope i'll get well soon..

First day reporting to my new unit

today, woke up at 5.45am.. my dad even set his alarm clock to 6 just in case i can't wake up haha.. prepare breakfast etc myself anf set off at 6.45. took bus 27 to tampines and change to bus 29..reached the camp at 7.40am.

report to the office and we slack in the store the whole day... sleeping.. zzzz
did one sai gang.. help to paint those container boxes black.. i find it rather easy as i finished 3 continers in 15 mins time..

tomolo going to report to the MO for my joint problems.. most prob will be revocated. meanwhile me and another oot personnel will be attached to the RSM to helped out.. so most prob we'll be doing paperwork for him and it should be in other camps and not selarang..

had and inspiration just now and made this button bracelet.. haha find it very nice.. anyone interested to buy? its the one and only bracelet. cos i dun have those buttons anymore LOL~!

sianz

i'm feeling sianz at home today.. my mum and aunt went genting together this morning.. was able to join them as my uncle driving up too.. but who knows, he called and say that he's there last night le.. will be staying over at KL for a night. haiz....

dunnoe why got tis very weird feeling that's making me feeling rather down.. not in the mood to do anything as well..

will be reporting tomolo to my new unit. hope it turns out smoothly and pray hard that i'll stay out haha. wish me good luck ~!

btw, the S.H.E yu le gen pi chong part 2 is ready.. but i'm finding places to upload it.. so u guyz still gonna wait lo.. haha.. and i'm getting the yu le gen pi chong into vcd.. so if you're interested, let me noe. it'll cos t ard 8 to 10 bucks.. =)

sianz

i'm feeling sianz at home today.. my mum and aunt went genting together this morning.. was able to join them as my uncle driving up too.. but who knows, he called and say that he's there last night le.. will be staying over at KL for a night. haiz....

dunnoe why got tis very weird feeling that's making me feeling rather down.. not in the mood to do anything as well..

will be reporting tomolo to my new unit. hope it turns out smoothly and pray hard that i'll stay out haha. wish me good luck ~!

btw, the S.H.E yu le gen pi chong part 2 is ready.. but i'm finding places to upload it.. so u guyz still gonna wait lo.. haha.. and i'm getting the yu le gen pi chong into vcd.. so if you're interested, let me noe. it'll cos t ard 8 to 10 bucks.. =)

Update~!!! Update~!!

ok.. shall do some updating of my life..

hmm.. i've spent more than 2 months of my life in tekong and around a month as a OOT.
Life as an OOT can be really slag, as well as tedious.. especailly during the field camp week where we need to fill 100+ of jerry can for them and collection of food rations for the sirs and sergants..

went for my bone scan on 1st nov together with my mum.. hehe..
the needle they used to inject those chemical into my body was damm thick lo.. i do feel painful when its injected. After the bone scan, was given 2 days of mc haha.. shiok..

On thursday, i just recieved my posting.. posted to Selarang camp as a driver.. reporting on monday morning.. hopefully everything goes on smoothly.. I missed everyone in tekong.. the sea breeze, the cookhouse, the canteen, the emart, Ulysses, the sirs and sergant, csm, OC, Yazid the clerk, bear the storeman, platoon 3, Section 2 ...

Guys take care ya.. and hope we'll get to meet up real soon =)

here's hw my hands looks like after the injection that day..



By the way.. stay tunned for the S.H.E Forever Singapore YU LE GEN PI CHONG VIDEOS coming up soon~!

S.H.E Yu Le Gen Pi Chong PART 1 (Photos)

Alright.. i know alot of u guyz are waiting for the photos right? haha.. so here it comes~!

S.H.E Forever Singapore Yu Le Gen Pi Chong Part 1

Day 1, 26th Oct 2006, Thurday
S.H.E was supposed to take the flight which will arrive in singapore on friday morning 6am, but they changed it to the flight on thursday night which is supposed to arrive at 9+, but due to some delayed of the flight, they reached at 11.30pm.. All of us reached the airport at 8.30 and we had our dinner and some catch up session while waiting for their arrival.

and btw, i managed to get those waivers done for their trip here this time round.. haha


After they've arrived, we gather for some briefing and left back home for a good night rest for tomorrow event.

Day 2, 27th Oct 2006, Friday
Woke up at 5.30am in the morning.. prepared myself and went off to take a bus to yishun and transfer to train to jurong.. reached imm at ard 7.45 to 8am... there was people queing up over there already.. join in with eunice and yiwen they all.. and slowly members started to join in too.. we played some games, the one that S.H.E played on WQYL, the rthyme bell thingy.. its fun lo.. LOL~ haha.. ard noon time, we had mac for lunch and it started to rain... some of the com members and i helped to queue for the members in the rain with the umbrella.. and the rain lasted for almost an hour ba.. time passed very quickly after the rain.. and we're all very excited to see them haha.. and yup, i'm interviewed by the media regarding our fc.. lol... luckily me, yi wen and eunice managed to get some of the members to help cheer for S.H.E.. as most of them are paiseh la.. haha.. maybe u'll get to see us on TV tomorrow, Sun, Channel U, 7pm, Zhou Mo Xin Wen Ju Le Bu..










at ard 7.45pm, they finally arrived and the first song that they sang was Chu dian.., followed by Wo Men Zen Me Le and Ring Ring Ring, with danced which all the fans requested for LOL~!..



after all the waiting and squeezing, its my turn to get my autographs.. surprised that we're allowed to sign more than 1 album and i helped my sergants and sirs to get their albums signed too.. lol.. one interesting stuff was.. i open up Selina's DIY book and shift it to her fornt, asking her to helped me sign.. and this is wat she says: "Hao de.. wo xian ba zhuan ji qian wan.. " and she really signed for me on the book.. I WAS SOOO HAPPY ~! hahaha.. moved on to Ella, congrats her for being nominated in the Jing Zhong Jiang best actress. and she thank me together with a smile on her face.. next was HEBE.. i requested for her to sign on the waiver we made.. and she hesitate for a while.. the xuan chuan by the side said later, when she's done with the albums.. when she finished signing the album.. she put the hands up to me and smiled.. i was like WOW... haha.. i shook hand with her and says thanks.. she smiled back again.. the smile from her was like OMG lo... hahaha...






Day 3, 28th Oct 2006, Saturday
woke up at ard 10am this morning.. uploaded my photos and was thinking and tempted to go for Global Chinese Music Award.. haha.. and in the end.. i really went for it.. bought tix at sistic outlet outside the indoor stadium.. meet up with aaron and the rest to cheer for S.H.E at the xing guang da dao.. they're damm pretty lo.. ahaha.. so happy.. enjoyed myself that night and was feeling so happy that i din miss it, or i regret lo.. lol~! din really have much pic of the event that day.. cos yy camera abit cannot make it le.. LOL.. not saying his cam no good, its just my expectation too high.. haha.. anyway thanks yy for the camera..

so inorder to get more clearer and closer pic.. my aunt suggested of buying a digital camera and was asking me to helped them pick one.. LOL.. am i dreaming? just when i thought of having one.. haha.. they wanna buy one good camera so that when they go for their coming genting trip and futre overseas trips, they can get nice photographs and at the same time i can use them for my S.H.E LOL~! ahaha... bought the Panasonic FX-07 digital camera and its really one good camera lo.. haha... look at those photos that i took and you'll know.. lol...

Day 4, 29th Oct 2006, Sunday
stayed overnight at my aunt house last night and i got back home this morning at 10am.. packed my stuff and off i go to meet trina and marlene at tampines mall.. we're afraid that we'll be too late for the event which starts at 3pm, we decided to go at 11.30am.. haha.. and we're right to say that we're clever to go at 11.30 cos there was people queueing up there already.. helped the comms in some stuff and we're all excited about this tong le hui.. haha..



























i'm really happy that i'm able to go onstage to celebrate selina's birthday.. she was so touched that she teared.. when she saw the cake design she say its soo cute.. i told her that i drew it.. haha.. and she was like oh really? and hebe says its sooo cute and she describe how it looks like to those fans below by telling them its a cartoon pic of selina and pinky.. haha.. i even told her that those waiver that they've been looking at for the past few days are drawn by me too.. haha.. i'm happy as they knew it.. and ella even asked wat fc we're frm.. and together with ella we shouted out Mong Huan Tian Tang.. tat's was a great feeling to have.. haha.. its really one happy day for me.. even managed to take photos with them lo.. lol.... thanks sheryl for helpin me.. =)













after the tong le hui, we proceeded to expo for the mini concert.. and everyone was soooo HIGH.. and from wat we see, i can say that the main focus of the concert was S.H.E lo.. u know wat.. before S.H.E appears, there's this video played back of their footages from the very 1st album to the latest one.. which is like so power lo.. they sang Chu Dian, Bu xiang zhang da, wo men zen me le and superstar.. the feeling that we had during their concert in jan this year was back again.. HIgh High HIGH~!!!







and enought of photos.. next stuff to come will be video clips.. its in the process of making and i hope i can finish it by tomolo.. so stay tunned for S.H.E Singapore Yu Le Gen Pi Chong PART 2~!